Science, science is not my thing.
But I addict to. I stick on it, sick at it
Yes it’s addiction. Purely so.
The reason is ridiculously simple, as common addiction things
Unbalance between pride and confidence
The typical trivial problem all the people have.
I’m filled by pointless pride with zero confidence, from the day 1 of my birth
I hate to be corrected
I hate to be pointed by someone from back
But I don’t have any confidence
My pride overwhelms me every single moment
And my lack in confidence make me pessimistic all the time
Suffer every moment
I just wanna make myself straight, supported by something reliable, something strong
And science looks crystal clear
No one talk behind it's back. Purely reliable.
Not just believed in science, I try to rely on it
Try to live for it
Only when I focus on science, for a moment, I forget to worry
No one cast blame on me, if only I do science, if only I’m with it.
For a moment I feel safe
I’m right, all right, I must be nothing but my science is something
I live for something important, something meaningful
My life is in vain but science is not. It will last.
Best option for weak people who cannot stand by themselves.
Now I admit that
I’m doing this NOT because I’m smart or have strong will or whatever,
No, all the explanations are postdicted
I’m here because I’m too weak to live
Weakness brought me here.
OMG, now I realize that I don’t have talent to stay here, but I have no where to go
That is not right, not at all.
I feel weird.
It’s not healthy. It’s too addictive.
I need to reconstruct relationship between me and science.
I need to stand by myself then I can do something for it.
Time to face it, I know
PR
